Bbq party

At the end of the day, i still need you by my side. I feel that a part of me is missing ever since that day. I wish i can call you or text you anytime i want. Thou u did call me every night, but it wasnt enough for me to tell you everything. There so much more i wanted to say. I dun wan to go thru this anymore. Feeling so miserable tonight. I m still not used to not having u around. And then again, i cant keep relying on you, hoping that you be there for me always. I should and could be more independent than this. After all, that's reality no matter how hard i refuse to accept that. Right now,all i could do is to count the days u left and the days u will be back. Good night. There's so much work to be done. I need my rest too.